You are not alone!! I too want to give life again.. I am a mother of four but am currently with someone who doesnt have any children.... I had a tubal reversal and it was the worst mistake I ever made in my life... I loved my pregnancies and diliveries and have four beautiful children... I hate the way it makes me feel as a woman too... .If your problem is not having eggs I am willing to donate and maybe we can help each other.. If your issue is like mine Chapel Hill Clinic does reversals for 5900 and does it right.... my prayers are with you.... really ..... they have payment plans too..